~dAyS pAsS bY sO fAst~

*sighs*.....the days pass by so fast and no time to anything....before i know it its PMR....(T_T)....DAMN IT!!!....okok change subject....okok....erm...what to say....i know...that day(i'm not gonna say when...cuz i forgot lol^^)...i went to a restorent(not gonna say the name)....there was like this waiter...damn his fine....his so cute!!!....okok...i know what your thinking....i like every guy i see....okok...maybe not every guy.....nevermind moving on....again dinner tonight...grandmothers bday today...*i think*....i seriouly dont know what to talk about....so boring la.....okok...anyways i dont care if your reading this or not...who the hell cares....there are like millions of bloggers out there...in the big big big world....but maybe the world its that big after all...OMG!....what the *tut* am i talking about.....i'm losing my mind...i'm so scared to go to school next year...for sure very damn boring one....i wanna go back BU3....*sob sob*....
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OKIEEEEEE.....!....maybe i sould stop writing crap....but there nothing to write about...life suxs....wait let me list down what lifes about....

1.lifes never fair(it will never be fair)
2.life has lots of heartachs(thats very true)
3.you never get things you want in life(wait....was the lifes unfair...hmmm...who cares)
4.Lifes hard to deal with.

well thats all i think my lifes about...

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next topic....i know....my guide to "How To Annoy Your Parents^^"


1.Scream on top of your voice in the middle of the night.
2.call mom/dad and when they reply say nothing or i forgot.
3.laught at very thing they say.
4.pok them in the tummy and run away.
5.blas your radio in your room.
6.buy unnessersary stuff form e-bay.
7.send them an e-mail saying "Nobody loves me" at least 20 times
8.when you''re the pool hide they're cloths.
9.call mommy/daddy and say "do you love me?" every 5 minutes.
10.tell them your pregnent and if your a boy tell them you made your girlfriend pergnent.
11.tell them your a lesbian or gay.
12.sing out of tune loudly.
13.mumble at everything they ask you.

you're taking a ricks by doing all this but have fun^^....haha....
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i write alot of unnessesary shit...do i...haha...anyways update tomorrow or later...but hopefully by tomorrow...^^...ciao...

~ChRiStMaS!~

okok i know...i've always say that i'll update tomorrow or later but....i'm always updating late so sorry...okok....i love Christmas cuz.....you know...(duh!)Presents and the best is....alcohol....muahahahahah.....HELLS YEA!!....OKOKOK....i didn't get drunk...okie maybe a little hahahha....so MERRY CHRISTMAS YA'LL!....AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!...next year everything will change....i hope for the better not the worse....so stressful PMR(haiz...=.=)....parents are like,"oii,study lah","STOP PLAYING PS2 AND STUDY!","get off the computer"....stressful i'll tell ya....anyways next year i'm so gonna be lonely...nevermind....i'll be the emo dude sitting in one dark corner alone and watch people moving faster then me....i hope phoa coming to sri inai in 2010....and maybe i have 40% of studying overseas after PMR....but i'm not so sure....i only 40% sure lol....and yea my dad bought himself a PS2 hahah....i know...*sighs*...i miss BU3 where we cause chaos in the class....i still remember i called my moral teacher a bitch and she left school....cool right...^^....amazing things we do in 2007...^^...okok back to the future...well i'm not sure what the future will be like and i cant predict the out come...but what ever happens i always have my blade...^^....lets just see how depress i am.....hahah....oh and now is like 8.15pm and i'm in my grandmothers house and my parents are playing the WII....maybe my dad's already addicted to the WII...well i have a chance on getting the WII lol...and my parents are really having fun...i think they are having more fun then i do...haha...thats why i here writing my blog....and the Internets slow i cant watch south park....very sad i know....lets see what else to write about....hmmm....*thinking*....*scanning brain*....i have like nothing to talk about lol...i like so tired....and tomorrow i have a dinner to go to...and dinner on saturday...my grandmothers bday....shes 80 this year....okok....what is it like to be 15.....i wonder....


*i wonder how,
i wonder why,
yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky,
and all that i can see,
its just another lemon tree*

lol....lyrics from the song lemon tree....i love that song...thx to phoa....^^....
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new topic....hmm....maybe not......my new idol NICHOLAS BRAUN!!!!....his so cute^^....better then robert pattinson(edward cullen)

its he cute....(puppy cute)^^lol

lol....i cant open my eyes i gtg....i hope i'll update soon lol....i hope so^^....ohya and i put out a timer for torture(school reopens)

~Long Day~

OKIE....i'm downloading KRO and Sakray....damn is so damn long 11 hours to finnish downloading...what the crap!.....anyways its still downloading....then after that its RO all the way....its still downloading.....*waiting*....argh!....to damn long...anyways...update tomorrow lol...i lazy

~ASSASSINS OR STALKERS?~

okie...i was thinking about playing RO again cuz less people are playing Tales Of Pirates(TOP:ITS NOT WASHING UP LIQUID PHOA!)....or so called the new name Pirate King(o.O)...okok so i was thinking assassins or stalkers are better...but to me ASSASSINS ROX!...to Gerardo Stalkers rox...so i want to do a comparison...between assassins and stalkers...

1. Assassins are hotter the the Stalkers (haha)
2.Assassins are faster then Stalkers.
3.Stalkers have a smarter way of killing.
4.Stalkers can walk through walls(well thats what i heard)
5.Stalkers have a skill called Strip(wait....they dont strip themselves they just strip other people....and its not the clothes)
6.Assassins have the skill called SoulBreaker...that puts a high damage to the opponent(YEAH!)
7.Assassins are King Of Murders.
8.Stalkers are rapers and child molesters.

so there....i wrote down all the crap....and GERARDO YOU CAN KISS MY ASS!!MUAHAHAHAHAH!....lol....
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lol...and last Sunday 14 or dec 2008 phoa called me and ask me about Mondays gethering with Racheal/Rachael....Our Conversation

Phoa:HELLO!
Me:Hi
Phoa:When is Rachael leaving earth?
Me:lol
Phoa:hahha
Me:soon
Phoa:cool,so are you going tomorrow?
Me:Cant i needa go see doctor...lol
Phoa:ooo...ok i'm not going also...lol

and thats the shorter version of our conversation about Rachael leaving earth...hehe....RACHAEL MAKE SURE YOU BOOK A SEAT FOR ME IN HAVEN.HAHAHAHHA!....and today i'm going out lol...1u...i wanna buy the RO CD to install....downloading is to fucking slow.....and i'm lazy to wait....i'll update later lol....
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YAHOOO!!!!....i got the new RO cd and now can play the private server....of course i wont play the real server....very lazy to lvl lol....yay!...i'm gonna install now lol....RAGNAROK!!!!...cya later....

~Whoa...Long time lol...~

Whoa....it has been Frekin long time since i've loged in..haha...whoa...okok Yesterday i went phoa's house for a sleep over...she no more braces lol....ok anyways....we went crazy as normal....we climbed stuff and we played UNO...i won like 12 times and she only won 2..haha x2..anyways the expired sweets was an accident...i didnt know(>.<)....*laughs secreatly*jkjk...and i was playing psp...PATA PATA PATA PON! or PON PON PATA PON! hahaha....so cute lol that games...and the first time i camhoe...haha lol...



*This is what we did*



OMG!I look weird in glasses lol....

LOL...now is like 9.56pm...lol...and as i was saying i would write more when i get the pictures from Phoa...but she still haven't uploaded it on blogger yet so...i'll write about crap i did today....

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today i was searching all my friends names on google...i found all...but one...Gerardo....i search for his names and they give me Tobacco Sauces...LOL..haha and he says his CLEAN!!!...*my foot*.....so the other crap i did today was loads of CRAP.....lol....i didn't do much today lol...very boring!...

~Somethings wroug with me~

okie....i was having a mood swing just now......and i cant help to talk to myself again...whats happening to me?.....this all started last month......was it cuz i was lonely?....what the hack?......I WANT HELP!!!!......i calm myself sometimes but i feel it wont stay away that long....I'm happy sometimes and the next thing i know it....i feeling like crying....or breaking things.....this happen(I'm my theory)...started with this GUY(i will call him X and i'm not going to say how we meet and where we meet)....okie X.....well you can say i liked him alot...even if he hurt me alot that time....but i forgave him....then one day,he just acted so different....he stoped saying the L word and that kinda hurt to.....so we talk(like we're just friends)...that hurt to....that he told me he had a girl friend just last week(i think)....WOW!!....that hurt alot.....i still can get him off my mind....that sucks.....i wanna tell him that i still like him and always like him(i dont say the L word much but only to my friend i say lots of love)...i donno what to do....i wanna forget about him....and just be friend....but how.......I"M A FREAK!THATS WHAT YOU ALL THINK OFF ME RIGHT!!!....but its okie....i'm learning to control it....I seriously need help....SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!....and what the hell am i going to do next year alone....and next year is PMR!!!!!!.....for sure get Panic attack or Nerves break down.....i hate myself.....as you can see....i complain alot......someone please me!!!......I'M CRYING OUT FOR HELP HERE!!!!......I guess no one can hear me.....i'm i the only one in this big world....i dont want to have Panic acttack or what so ever.....HELP!!!!

~Lol nothing to say,so just tambak say~

Hi!!!seriously i have nothing to say so i will just talk about random crap....okie....what do you think of the colour pink?....i think the colours gay....when guys wear that colour its even more gay(O.o)....and they'll like pink floppy flamingos...flopping around...haha.....when parents lets their new born son wear pink....it is stated that the sons future love life will be GAY!!!....haha....lets see how many time i say the word GAY....*counting*....4 times^^....haha....now what else to talk about...okie lets talk about flying pigs...haha....seriously i have nothing to talk about....i know i'll find out whats the meaning of gay^^.....*hours later*.....Found it....its.....man to man relationship...haha....okok....i'm bored.....I'm not going to see my friend for two days on the game(T_T)......i'm still a noob on Tales of Pirates....haha....and proud to be one.....maybe i'll get nominated for "King Of Noobs"(KON)....haha....lets talk about another Random thing....*thinking*....okie....err.....i still have no idea.....*thinking*....*hours later*...lets talk about puppies.....i love puppies....my uncle's dog has a litter of puppies again....i think this is the 9th time that dog gave birth to puppies....haha.....i wonder would people have 9 kids or more.....I WANNA KNOW!!!.....TWILIGHT!!!!!!i so wanna watch twilight......EDWARD CULLEN!!!!ROBERT PATTINSON!!!....i'am a Robert Pattinson Freak.....haha.....these days all the movie for young and old has uncensored seances....haha^^.....what wonder what more they'll put in the future^^.....okie....i better stop talking or not i wont stop....haha....cya....

~My Friends~

Hi again!!!....i have loads to tell you about my friends(hehe)okie my first friend i meet in BU3 is Christine Phoa....we were like what the hell when we found out that we have the same name on the frist day(haha)...we laugh together,share secrets and many more...we go crazy....and when i mean crazy...definitions of our crazy is laugh like the worlds is about to end and scream on top of our voice,talk senseless crap....the funny thing is we laugh when theres nothing to laugh at....o yea and one time when we were in centre point Phoa fell into the pond...it made me piss in my pant laughing and till this day i am still laughing haha...and PHOA I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU THIS SATURDAY!!!...i will always love PHOA(not in a lesbian way^^)...the other firend is Catherine....whoa shes so cute(not in a lesbian way,in a puppy cute way)....and shes the one who bullies me a lot like calling me noob....and when shes angry...we dont wanna make her more angry(but i find it cute when shes angry.so shhhh~or i get in to real deep shit)anyways.....we still lover her...haha....I MISS YOU CAT!!!...the other one is Amanda.....haha....shes makes us happy when were sad....shes like our happy pill that we always keep with us and never throw it away.....MISS YOU MANDA.....and those are my friends in BU3....and Racheal or Rachael(which ever it is)...we talk and talk and talk(i wonder how my teachers in sri inai says i'm quiet)MAN!!!....that gurl can really talk....^^...my friend from Sri KDU is Carissa...we hang out alot and also share secrets....I MISS YOU CARI!!...AND my childhood friend SU JIN that i will wright separately...thats all for now...

~Forgotten massage~

yea i forgot again...if any of you guys have panic attack or what so ever you can always check out these sites:

www.nimh.nih.gov
www.adaa.org
www.teenshealth.org
www.panicdisorder.about.com

i wish you all well...^^

~its me again~

HI!!!readers!!!!if your there!!!nevermind....as you all know i forgot my password and my username to my last two blog...........yes I'm forgetful....haha....thats me^^!!!!.....what to say....*thinking what to say*....yea well I'll be writhing in alot...for starters i would talk about....getting a new handphone....and every time i ask my parents...they'll be like "you already have a handphone"."whats wrong with your handphone","we don't want to spend that much money" and on on on it goes....so we end up fighting...and door slamming....but sometimes if feel guilty...i don't know why but i do...i really wit i didn't have this guilt feeling....argh screw it....why do i care....^^....as you know i like to use lots of dotes like this:..........,haha^^...and life cant get any worse.....T_T....i am trying to think that life's great and stuff like that....and its not that easy...and this year i got addict to scaring my hand and the pain feels better then the pain of having a bad life......i hope next year i don't get a nerves break down or a panic attack....i heard one of the symptoms for panic acttacks is shortness of breath...i have been having that off and on three times (O.o) and my mother took me to the doctors....apprently nothings wrong with me BUT i have scoliosis(life cant get any worse)....i have to go back to see another doctor....so thats it for now...so i'll keep my blog updated this time(I Hope) cya ya!...